I want my parents to give me some space and leave me the fuck alone. I have been living in constant fucking fear of them since I was little. Fuck off, seriously just fuck off. Stop trying to guilt trip me into going back to your house. I DON'T WANT TO, I DON'T WANT TO, I DON'T WANT TO. I don't feel good around you, you fucking faggots, and I have enough hearing that everything is my fault. I'm already a mental wreck, just LET ME FUCKING REST. THIS IS THE ONLY THING I WANT. I WANT TO REST. I WANT TO RELAX, I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK.
I am being told that I look like a complete mental wreck by my friends, everyone I meet is telling me that my parents were acting like assholes towards me, yet I still feel guilty. I constantly feel guilty over not going there and not staying with them. But I would prefer to DIE rather than do this. Last time it got physical and I can't take it anymore. I wish that I could just disappear, and find myself somewhere far away, with no one to tell me what to do or yell at me constantly. I'm over 20 already, and I still live fearful of my own fucking parents. I feel absolutely pathetic and disgusted with myself. And at the same time I don't know if they aren't right in the end, I can never have certainity. I'm fearful of making decisions on my own, due to how overfucking protective they were. Families should be fucking outlawed, holy shit, I have no fucking empathy for any fucking retard bitching about the importancce of "muh family". I feel I would be better fucking adjusted if I was an orphan.