I had dreams about diapers from as far back as when I was actually in diapers. I was potty trained at about 2 and a half. Didn't wet the bed either. But I remember that far back.
It wasn't until some girl I knew announced she wanted to wear diapers again. Of course, she had just said it on a whim, which she did frequently. But it was at that moment I realized I actually liked diapers. I was age eleven. Up till that point, all my dreams about diapers had been nightmares where I couldn't get away from them. Thoughts of shame and horror. After that, it was a fantasy, but I could never get a hold of diapers in my dreams, always just out of reach.
I was able to steal diapers and try them, but only for a while. At 13 I got internet and then found porn and diaper stories. (and pics of girls in diapers was almost certainly not legal.)
I would read stories and browse these pics for hours. I even wrote some of my own stories.
A couple years later and the dreams turned to wet dreams. I didn't like it and didn't know what it was. I never asked anyone and no one ever gave me 'the talk'
This went on. Sometimes it would get to the point my balls would just hurt and hurt. I never said anything bcause I didn't know what to say or who to say it to. I had learned previously to hide my interest like the darkest secret. Only a couple people knew, back when I was a jewish, and I regretted ever saying anything once I realized they didn't like it like I did.
It wasn't until I was 21. Yes, 21. I was playing some game with some sexy chick in it. I had a raging boner, which did feel good. But then I thought 'what if I touch it?' Up 'til that point I'd only read stories about being a kid again. I skipped all the sex because it didn't interest me. Never watch actual porn, just looked a pics of girls, then at some point women in diapers. So yeah, I actually never put any thought into masturbating.
Anyway, I came in like two tugs. Probably squirted enough to drown a horse. Like years of pent up urges cause at some point the wet dreams stopped. That nut was like the best ever.
But I could never go back to not doing it. I had to, so I did, a lot. I did slow down after a few years.
But yeah, didn't tug it until 21. But looked at porn for years before. I'm sure that really helped me become a well-adjusted man.